Being whole

Where are you

I've always felt alone

No matter the size of the room

Or the crowd around me

When arms are wrapped around me

Something feels missing

I'd always imagened a home

A home I felt safe

Felt protected

But how do you imagine something

You’ve never seen

Or understand

I walk through a store

or the heavy streets

Looking for that comfort

For that knowledge

That I am not alone in this world

But I cannot not see it

No matter what or who I recognize

It is not the connection

The protection

That I need to feel safe

It is the knowledge

That you are there

You are here

Not for anyone else

Except yourself and I

I am a priority

I am yours

To keep safe

Keep close

To love and cherish

But that is not what I feel

When your arms slide around my waist

No

But I so wish it was

So here I stand alone in this world

Waiting on the feeling

Of being whole

Standing still as the world rushes by