I Need More
Mini scene
“Do you hate me?” She yells as she turns towards me quickly.
“No…. Why would you-” start but she interrupts me
“Because you never give me your feelings.” Her voice softens as her chin tilts down. Her shoulder softens and suddenly she is small again.
“I… I don’t know how too. I’ve tried.. God I’ve tried to share and give you something but every time I step into it, my legs give out and my words are taken away.” I try to explain, being truthful, versus trying to be fancy as always.
“I need more, I can't handle the silence, the lack of expression. If you can't tell me… I don’t think this can continue…” Her eyes meet mind again, seeing my face drop, my jaw slacken. Her expression is hurt, pained, but no tears. She must be holding them back, she red, I knew she cared. So why is there no tears.
“I can try to be better… I have tried, but this time I can-” I try to convince her.
“No more chances. I am done. You are done here. Please just go.” The room got darker, as if she controlled the sun going behind the clouds. That was filtering through the kitchen window. I didn’t feel like I could even try, that I could even say anything to change her mind in this moment. So I didn’ t, I turned and walked out the door, keys in hand that were by the door and off I left. Hoping I can change her mind at a different time… but she could be right.
The part that stayed with me wasn't the argument itself, but the moment he admits he doesn't know how to give his feelings. Sometimes the inability to speak hurts just as much as the silence it creates. That ending feels painfully human.